New Year 2008

Holidays started pretty simple, I guess to the point where you could say it was on the verge of expected as a routine set in. Things recently are not so clear as lines are blurred and as we move into the next set challenges, choices and long term plans. Things are not as they seem to me, things once crystal clear, now dimmed by my fading eyesight. Sometimes it can be said that adults have adult problems and I guess now is time to learn to grow up. People change, you learn what makes you complete, or think you do. I guess deep in the back of my mind Ive always schemed in some ways, but I have also held back on numerous occasions and I believe thats what molds my being. Ive learned some things which I want to be, some things I dont, and somethings I cant stand. You cant always stop the bad from happening, but Ill do what I can. So I guess theres two things I can try, believe that with knowledge of the Lord, I can achieve infinity and by putting some thought and effort, more can be accomplished.

Fact and Fiction.

I would like to believe I did my best to entertain friends while I was back, but I do have doubts. I always try not to regret, but I guess my being holds me back at some point when the deed outweights my character. I like to have fun, but sometimes my mind races, its wrong to entertain? The cost sometimes is very great, but sometimes the hard choices are made. Theres this great lyric from an "Atomic Kitten" song : " A moment's pain for a lifetime's pleasure". I guess as a guideline it will hold true.